Realisation
Logged on to my blog for the first time after what seems like forever, with the intention to start writing again, just to write, about anything, you know, to start working the writing muscle again.
So I did what everyone else with a blog would do (I think), go back down memory lane and read old posts.
No? Just me? Alright then.
A few things I realized:
1) I used to put so much effort into maintaining this blog and stuck to a schedule of posting at least 3 posts a week. Now I struggle to even stick to my workout schedule... I started envying my 2012 self, which is silly of course, but it also made me realize that who I am now, is not really me, it's who I have become and I have let it define who I am, so, time to 'redefine' myself.
2) That I was so full of myself, and full of pride. I thought that I was the shit and all ye humble slaves shalt bow before me and worship thy awesome deity. Wow the things I wrote, and the person I was, I can't believe that I once had this in me. I've deleted these posts of course, never would I want to be reminded of who I was, furthermore, this particular blog post that I'm writing right now serves as a reminder anyway.
3) Similar to the above point, I was extremely selfish. I couldn't care less for how others felt from how I treated them/behaved around them. Here I am, admitting that yes, I was a total bitch. And here I am also, publicly apologizing to all those that I have hurt, with my actions and my words. I am not making any 'I was young and naive' excuses but owning it now, I'm Sorry.
4) I was incredibly productive and was someone who can't sit still. I did things. I went places. I explored new ideas. I travelled (a lot). I met new people. I made things. I said 'yes' to opportunities a lot. What happened to this person? Time for her to resurface!
In many ways, I'm so happy I used to blog/write. It has given me this opportunity to look back and learn. This little moment of realization, is invaluable.
Now, I'm off to start working on myself. Ciao.
So I did what everyone else with a blog would do (I think), go back down memory lane and read old posts.
No? Just me? Alright then.
A few things I realized:
1) I used to put so much effort into maintaining this blog and stuck to a schedule of posting at least 3 posts a week. Now I struggle to even stick to my workout schedule... I started envying my 2012 self, which is silly of course, but it also made me realize that who I am now, is not really me, it's who I have become and I have let it define who I am, so, time to 'redefine' myself.
2) That I was so full of myself, and full of pride. I thought that I was the shit and all ye humble slaves shalt bow before me and worship thy awesome deity. Wow the things I wrote, and the person I was, I can't believe that I once had this in me. I've deleted these posts of course, never would I want to be reminded of who I was, furthermore, this particular blog post that I'm writing right now serves as a reminder anyway.
3) Similar to the above point, I was extremely selfish. I couldn't care less for how others felt from how I treated them/behaved around them. Here I am, admitting that yes, I was a total bitch. And here I am also, publicly apologizing to all those that I have hurt, with my actions and my words. I am not making any 'I was young and naive' excuses but owning it now, I'm Sorry.
4) I was incredibly productive and was someone who can't sit still. I did things. I went places. I explored new ideas. I travelled (a lot). I met new people. I made things. I said 'yes' to opportunities a lot. What happened to this person? Time for her to resurface!
In many ways, I'm so happy I used to blog/write. It has given me this opportunity to look back and learn. This little moment of realization, is invaluable.
Now, I'm off to start working on myself. Ciao.
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